The last couple of days

So, yesterday I finally got to enroll in some TLLC (that's teaching, living, and learning center) programs. I know the name is embarrassing, but this is a step up and what I ACTUALLY need to be doing in order to get my goals accomplished. I'm going to be there on Wednesday afternoons, starting next week. I am psyched because every step forward is another step towards the door! (oh, and being a grown up and whatever).
I also went to the art supply store with my therapist, and she bought me this really rad book called "642 Things To Draw" which is basically a blank book with the pages separated into squares, each with a thing to draw written on it, and you just draw it right into the book. So far I have drawn: a rolling pin, a hammock, an anchor, Van Gogh's ear, a sandwich, an ottoman, mushrooms, bubbles, a pickle, tube socks, a peg leg, a balloon, head in the clouds, a crystal ball, a mouth, a turkey leg, a pencil, a picket fence, a cassette tape, a corn dog with mustard, mittens, a pocket, a fairy, a bandage, a football, a lightbulb, a horseshoe, a hamburger, cat whiskers, a chalkboard, feelings, a sound wave, toes, an eyeball, a bird's nest, toast, a Q-tip, the moon, cotton candy, a pillow, a lollipop, a thumbtack, a cupcake, an orb, my pinky finger, an amoeba, an egg, a starfish, a can of beans, a baby monster, a bow, a bed, polka dots, woodgrain, zig zags, a sweater, and myself. Don't worry, I will not be updating you on all 642 things.
We also went bowling yesterday, and then AGAIN today! That's 4 bowling trips in a little over 2 weeks. I am still super bad at it. I don't really have any desire to get better, but I feel like I have to go on all the outings to prove that I am doing well. It's quite tedious some of the time.
The other thing that happened today is a new guy came to the program and I am jealous. Because he is a really cute skater dude so immediately everyone is flocking to him and I feel like a geek so I can't do it, plus he's always outside smoking. I am very intimidated by hot dudes! I can tell you this, NO ONE was acting like they are with him when I was the one who just got here. Ugh, I feel so ugly and invisible, even though I am CLEARLY way cooler than these people. They just don't know it! Sometimes my "stay away because I am too cool for you" vibes get misread as "i am very timid" vibes. You guys know I 'aint timid. So, new guy. Too cute to feel comfortable around, also jacking the few people I AM reasonably comfortable around. I hate you, new guy!
And I FINALLY got the cable to connect my camera to my computer, so expect a photo in the right corner from now on. I'm going to try to take one every day. They aren't going to be my regular stuff because there are no groovy people doing silly things around here, only lame people sitting around and talking about their feelings.